Troy - Day 3

So today was our first full day on the island and it was an amazing we celebrated johns 40th birthday. John cook is an amazing man. Most of what I know about what a christen father should look like I learned from watching him. We started vbs this morning and it went great steph gave an awesome lesion/ jeff did awesome with some fun songs and Holly and Anna did and amazing job leading the kids in the vbs songs. We spent the afternoon an a beach so beautiful it blew my mind. I learned to snorkel and was amazes to see small coral reefs stingrays a shark and a awesome sea turtle. We ended the day sitting on a dark beach paying tribute to john and true to his nature could not resist teaching us another biblical lesion. It was an amazing day. But threw it all that nagging sense of unworthiness still follows me I an surrounded my such amazing people that I fear I cannot compare. I find my self thinking that I cant lead kids in songs like Jeff and Doug. I cant entertain them like torti I cant lead song and dances like holly and Anna. I will never be able to relate to kids like allie and steph and Julie do. And so I find my slef wondering what I can contribute I am doing everything I am asked to and then moiré but I still cant shake this uncharacteristic self doubt. I cant help but wonder if my spot on my team could not have went to some one wore qualified some one better equipped for the task at hand. That being said I am here know and going to keep trying my hardest to reach the unreachable goal of living up to the standard SET BY THIS amazing group of young people.